Dear internet

Hi my name is Christina and I need someone to talk to. Life has always been so complicated and it feels like I'm constantly on a tightrope over a canyon on a windy day. Some basics about me as I said my name is Christina I'm a single mom of 4 kids but am dating a wonderful man. I have been diagnosed with depression ptsd psychotic tendencies but most commonly and what I refer to myself as bipolar.  I struggle everyday just to get thru my ex and children's father seem to be shaking my tightrope every chance he gets. In my current situation I am low income only receiving aid right now I have applied again for social security (which I used to receive) I don't receive any child support nor do I expect that to change.  Just moved out of my apartment into a house with my boyfriend. I have full custody of my children fighting to keep my children safe from their father. My children and myself all go to therapy I am doing my very best to keep my family together safe sound secure and healthy both physically and mentally but often feel like I'm not succeeding cant succeed and wont succeed. I'm creating this blog as a place to vent to discuss my problems issues thoughts and joys. If someone passes by and would like to read chat or comment please feel free!